Inevitability

I've heard the thunder from afar
And nothing you could say would take it away
Like a little stone that's thrown your way
Cause and effect will hit you hard in the face

But first there was the light
Can't escape the will to come
Inevitability of the might
Blame the laws, your fate, my God!

With the breeze that brought you here
You danced along and now you fly for good
You made us shine, you made us proud
Yet the plan will always play me as the fool

But first there was the light
Can't escape the will to come
Inevitability of the might
Blame the laws, your fate, my God!

The truth you spoke, the stains we shared
The words we invent, the numbers for us
You gave me breath and took it from me
The love you seed, now help me I'm lost

Angels must be kept on their realm
Their touch increase your heart rate
Angels must be kept on their realm
Bring me up to a hundred and twenty eight

Angels must be kept on their realm
Bunker me in with an endless hug
Angels must be kept on their realm
Can't wait to feel this all over again

But first there was the light
Can't escape the will to come
Inevitability of the might
Blame the laws, your fate, my God!

Olive

Little child, hold on

One more hug before it's done

Your tears shall turn now to dust
Now keep half sentences unsaid

Little child, hold on
All those years you count are gone
Touch my face just one last time
Too much comfort will hurt us both

You dressed to match the eyes of your killer
We knew how this wound would grow
And you chose white over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you took it anyway

Little child, let go
Danger is what we paid for
End was nigh and we both knew
Hypocrisy can never smear

Little child, let go
Let me turn and close the door
No more scars to feed our pride
Wrong directions drove us to this

You dressed to match the eyes of your prey
We knew how this wound would grow
And you chose white over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you took it anyway

You chose the darkest night for murder
Oiled arms to let my hopes glide off
Smile away while you fly over disorder
The face of a little child shies on

You dressed to match the eyes of your prey
We knew how this wound would grow
And you chose white over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you took it anyway

(Oh, little child, hold on) eyes of your killer
We knew how this wound would grow
(Olive glow, let go) over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you wished for us away
Peace had a cost I was never meant to pay
Peace had a cost we blew right from the start
Peace had a cost and you swallowed anyway 

FTF 38

There is always some sort of evolution to all of us. The music that inspires me is part of that... Never will be ashamed of the new songs (though in the past I have skipped one or two...). This is who I am today.

1. Carla Morrison - Tú Atacas: Another blue song.
2. Ellie Goulding - Love I'm Given
3. Rhye - Song for You: A perfect video for a perfect song...
4. Son Lux - A Different Kind Of Love: I need a...
5. Twenty Øne Pilots - Redecorate: I don't wanna go like this.
6. Marilyn Manson - Coma Black: I killed myself to make everybody pay. These two songs are the different sides of the same coin.
7. Pinback - Drawstring: Where's the sun, has it set? New discovery and will remain a constant...
8. Foo Fighters - Shame Shame
9. Royal Blood - Boilermaker: Just for the attitude and to remember a dark room.
10. American Head Charge - Drowning Under Everything: Went under my radar five years ago. I want you to really need it, so bad!
11. Spiritbox- Circle With Me: This could all be yours.
12. Love And Death - Death Of Us
13. Chevelle - Self Destructor: Bite your tongue! The masters are back, full throttle.
14. Skinlab - Demons: How long will I'll last when I'm living a lie?

15. Divine Heresy - Darkness Embedded: What was drained out, grows back again.

16. Pop Evil - Inferno: Falling apart 'cause everything burns.
17. Oceans - Polaris: The star guiding home among the storms...

18. Machine Head - Arrows In Words From The Sky: A spirit's buried inside, you were meant to shine a light⁠

The hardest steps are the ones you don't make...

Sing along!

Tú Atacas by Carla Morrison

Tú eres del pasado

Que mis dedos acariciaron

¿Para qué vuelves esta vez

A inquietarme otra vez?

Prendes todas mis emociones

Devuelves los calores

Todo comienza a girar

En torno a tu regresar

Después de tanto tiempo

Tienes en mí todos tus cimientos

Tú me desbalanceas

Tú, quien pausa mi tiempo

Tú me tocas, yo tiemblo

Tú atacas siempre en silencio

Después de tanto, pienso

Que como tú, a otrx no encuentro

He aprendido a estar solx

Con mi sombra

Cuando reprimo mi querer

Siento volver a estar bien

Me miento constantemente

Me hago xlx fuerte

Aunque vuelvas a mí rondar

Me hago ciegx cuando pasas

Después de tanto, pienso

Que como tú, a otrx no encuentro

Tú me desbalanceas

Tú, quien pausa mi tiempo

Tú me tocas, yo tiemblo

Tú atacas siempre en silencio 

Después de tanto tiempo

En mí tienes cimiento

A blue song.

Inferno by Pop Evil

So here we are, still I'm broken

I am who I am, but I'm not chosen

So tell me life is a joke

Turn my flame into smoke

Am I broke?

I can't breathe in 'cause I'm beginning to choke

In the silence, I scream

It's like I'm living a dream

I can't wake up 'cause it seems like

I'm losing everything

I'm losing everything

Giving it all, the weight of the world

It's crashing, it's crashing into me

Falling apart 'cause everything burns

It's flashing, it's flashing in front of me

Inferno, inferno

Inferno, inferno

This fire, this fire is all I see

Why can't I just take a stand?

Hеlp me, just take my hand

Understand I'm alone

Slowly sinkin' in sand

If I could just stop the blaze

Start to get through the haze

Let the rain fall down

And wash away again

I can start again

Giving it all, the weight of the world

It's crashing, it's crashing into me

Falling apart 'cause everything burns

It's flashing, it's flashing in front of me

Inferno, inferno

Inferno, inferno

'Cause fire, 'cause fire is all I see

Redecorate by Twenty Øne Pilots

-There was a wonderful structure to the city

And it put my cares to rest-

Taking inventory of his life

Seeing snapshots chronologically in line

Something told him he should look around and tidy up

He collected many things but never quite enough

Tried looking at it from a new perspective

Flat on his back but he still heard the directive

Orders from that corner where that shadow always lived

Never asked permissions he just hopes that they forgive

I don't want to go like this

At least let me clean my room

I don't want to leave like this

'Cause the last thing I want to do is

Make my people make decisions

Wondering what to do, oh

Should they keep it on display

Or redecorate?

Blankets over mirrors, she tends to like it 

he's not afraid of her reflection

But of what she might see behind it

She had plans to change her name

Just not the traditional way

Haunted by a couple big mistakes

She covers all the dents with the way she decorates

Then one night she got cold with no blankets on her bed

So she ripped them off the mirror, stepped back and she said

I don't want to go like this

At least let me clean my room

I don't want to leave like this

'Cause the last thing I want to do is

Make my people make decisions

Wondering what to do, oh

Should they keep it on display

Or redecorate?

With the bells and the whistles scaled back

Like an isolated track

And he feels trapped when he's not inebriated

Fair to say he's fairly sedated most days of the week

He might have made it if he lived on a different street

I repeat, scaled back and isolated

He says he likes an open schedule but he mostly hates it

If you're running to his room, take a breath before you break-in

Put your ear up to the door, tell me can you hear him saying?

I don't want to go like this

At least let me clean my room

I don't want to leave like this

'Cause the last thing I want to do is

Make my people make decisions

Wondering what to do, oh

Should they keep it on display

Or redecorate?

(a song for me... please, just redecorate!)

Song for You by Rhye

A blue song.

FTF 37

Coming to understand myself and accepting who I am and what I came for. Letting go of all the burdens to become my own... If my mission is to love, I should start from the inside.

1. Bassnectar - Butterfly (Featuring Mimi Page): Set as an intro...
2. PVRIS - Old Wounds: They say don't open old wounds, but this is still brand new.
3. Gorillaz - Chalk Tablet Towers: The catchiest song on the machine.
4. Oliver Tree - Jerk: You say you don't want me...
5. Beady Eye - Shine A Light: Meant to be here for a couple years, and finally found its place.
6. Arctic Monkeys - Dance Little Liar: A sexy song to be sung for myself and danced by you.
7. Mother Mother - I Must Cry Out Loud: Yes, I must. The hidden gem through it all. 
8. O'Brother - Slipping: I'm pulling punches instead of just leaving.
9. Brand New - Same Logic / Teeth: Every new layer you uncover reveals something else you hate.
10. Zeal And Ardor - At The Seams: Desperation and helplessness... October/19 and George Floyd.
11. Deftones - Genesis: Balance.
12. LIMBS - Empty Vessel: How long is the breath that I have to hold before I'm worth my weight in gold? Ghosts.
13. Slipknot - Nero Forte: A drive home with anger in my fists.
14. Trivium - Catastrophist: For the both of us...

15. Seether - Wasteland: Nobody seems to be able to shed the treadwheel.

16. Marilyn Manson - BROKEN NEEDLE: I am a needle dig in your grooves, scratch you up then I'll put you away.
17. Bring Me The Horizon - One Day The Only Butterflies Left Will Be In Your Chest As You March Towards Your Death (Featuring Amy Lee)

Coming to flesh out all the feeling inside to pave a way for a better self. Not shy of who I've become, all the different emotions and landscapes that are who I am now.

Share it with me.

I Must Cry Out Loud by Mother Mother

Here come my tears

Like a dancer on a stage

I got nothing to fear

Just a hurricane of feeling

Baby, come here

Show me how to shake

I wanna move like the air

A pirouette of pain

Now, I must cry

Yes, I must cry

Yes, I must cry out loud

Why do I sing (like loe-la-loe-la-le)

That's why I sing

I'm a force in the wind (like loe-la-loe-la-he)

Can you hear me?

Why do we live (yeah)

We live so we might live a little bit

Why do we dig (yeah)

We dig so we might find it, can you dig it?

Now, I must cry

Yes, I must cry

Yes, I must cry out loud

Slipping by O'Brother

You’re a place I cannot leave

A space I cannot see

A pitfall underneath

I’m slipping

You’re a poison in my teeth

A tongue I cannot speak

A pitfall underneath

I’m slipping

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of getting even

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of just leaving

You’re loss I cannot grieve

A truth I disbelieve

A pitfall underneath and

I’m slipping

It’s a tangled web

We weave drunk on pleasantries

A pitfall underneath and

I’m slipping

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of getting even

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of just leaving

 

Jerk by Oliver Tree

You say you don't want me

You call me good for nothing straight to my face

You say you don't need me

You call me good for nothing, a waste of space

Don't remind me

I'm minding my own damn business

Don't try to find me

I'm better left alone in this

It doesn't surprise me

Do you really think that I could care

If you really don't like me

Find somebody else

It could be anyone else out there

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

One thing

When you're angry, you're a jerk

And then you treat me like I'm worth nothing

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

It'll happen again

I'll watch it happen over and over again

You say you don't want me

You call me good for nothing straight to my face

You say you don't need me

You call me good for nothing, a waste of space

I watch the walls caving in on me

I'm sick of feeling so fucking lonely

By now I've given up all hope

I guess I'm better off alone

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

One thing

When you're angry, you're a jerk

And then you treat me like I'm worth nothing

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

It'll happen again

I'll watch it happen over and over again