ITIIITISTIIHYLIHYL by BLACKSHAPE

If this is it

If this is all there is

I hope you live

I hope you live

If there's no end

And we are infinite

Still, I hope you live

I hope you live.

I hope you live.

Creature (Perfect) by Ibeyi

Feathers and blue scales

Eyes evoking rain

When I lay down in the calm of the deep blue sea

I let the waves wash over me

I let the waves wash over me

Soy espuma

Y soy ceniza

Y le siembro el corazón a la Tierra

I don’t have to be perfect, don’t have to be perfect

I finally see, I’m just a Creature

Don’t have to be perfect, no I am not perfect

I finally see who i’m supposed to be

Thunder out of pain

Stars in movement

When we i realize in the dark watching them dance

They follow my fingertips

Soy espuma

Y soy ceniza

Y le siembro el corazón a la Tierra

With my bad poems, my soft belly

Escaping who I’m supposed to be

My childhood prayer, Death watching over me

Accepting who I’m supposed to be

I don’t have to be perfect, don’t have to be perfect

I finally see, I’m just a Creature

Don’t have to be perfect, no I am not perfect

I finally see who I’m supposed to be

We declare

Counting seconds passing by

We're all ready to start the fight

Give me a reason don't ask why

All systems down can't back down

Now let the drums roll

Breathe in, breathe out

War!

We declare war just because

Come and face us, let us explode

I declare war just for fun

Start a fire you can't control

Freedom has become a privilege

To no banner I make any pledge

You've put the herd against the ledge

All walls are down can't back down

When they take it all from you

When our all rights are wrong and gone

When no one is safe at any time

Then blame the masters for the doom

When there's no escape for us

When our all rights are wrong and gone

When no one is safe at any time

Then blame the masters for the doom

War!

We declare war just because

Come and face us, let us explode

I declare war just for fun

Start a fire you can't control

Inevitability

I've heard the thunder from afar
And nothing you could say would take it away
Like a little stone that's thrown your way
Cause and effect will hit you hard in the face

But first there was the light
Can't escape the will to come
Inevitability of the might
Blame the laws, your fate, my God!

With the breeze that brought you here
You danced along and now you fly for good
You made us shine, you made us proud
Yet the plan will always play me as the fool

But first there was the light
Can't escape the will to come
Inevitability of the might
Blame the laws, your fate, my God!

The truth you spoke, the stains we shared
The words we invent, the numbers for us
You gave me breath and took it from me
The love you seed, now help me I'm lost

Angels must be kept on their realm
Their touch increase your heart rate
Angels must be kept on their realm
Bring me up to a hundred and twenty eight

Angels must be kept on their realm
Bunker me in with an endless hug
Angels must be kept on their realm
Can't wait to feel this all over again

But first there was the light
Can't escape the will to come
Inevitability of the might
Blame the laws, your fate, my God!

Olive

Little child, hold on

One more hug before it's done

Your tears shall turn now to dust
Now keep half sentences unsaid

Little child, hold on
All those years you count are gone
Touch my face just one last time
Too much comfort will hurt us both

You dressed to match the eyes of your killer
We knew how this wound would grow
And you chose white over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you took it anyway

Little child, let go
Danger is what we paid for
End was nigh and we both knew
Hypocrisy can never smear

Little child, let go
Let me turn and close the door
No more scars to feed our pride
Wrong directions drove us to this

You dressed to match the eyes of your prey
We knew how this wound would grow
And you chose white over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you took it anyway

You chose the darkest night for murder
Oiled arms to let my hopes glide off
Smile away while you fly over disorder
The face of a little child shies on

You dressed to match the eyes of your prey
We knew how this wound would grow
And you chose white over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you took it anyway

(Oh, little child, hold on) eyes of your killer
We knew how this wound would grow
(Olive glow, let go) over the gloom
Peace had a cost and you wished for us away
Peace had a cost I was never meant to pay
Peace had a cost we blew right from the start
Peace had a cost and you swallowed anyway 

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Dreamt about the moon last night
(You were) dressed in black and yet you'd shine
(I heard) you were talking 'bout your time
(That you'd) wait for us to reunite

(You have it all)

Dreamt about your gloomy face
(Yet I'd) knew it was your soul and grace
(I could) hear the laughter I would chase
(And you) offered me the chance we slayed

(You have it all)
Don't waste your purity on chaos
(You have it all)
Your smile is granted up above
(You have it all)
384 thousand you call home
(You have it all)
Don't come closer just for laughs

Dreamt about the space between
(There's no) way for me to reach you now
(If I'd) meant to go would not get through
(And you) never stayed still for long

(You have it all)

Dreamt about my broken soul
(I will) always have my eyes on you
(I said) sun will fade but I'd remain
(Sadly) open eyes will show the truth

(You have it all)
Don't waste your purity on chaos
(You have it all)
Your smile is granted up above
(You have it all)
384 thousand you call home
(You have it all)
Don't come closer just for laughs

Wandering across the space between
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384 400
384 400

Locus (by O'Brother)

I woke up in the in-between

And my head expands

My head expands

Muttering words of prophecy

From a fever dream

You shared with me

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

You run like a criminal

When you need me

You were tongue-tied and elegant

When you need me

Love is careless, love is blind

Love is envious

I'm envious

Always thought it was hard to find

But I'm oblivious

Oblivious

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

You run like a criminal

When you need me

You were tongue-tied and elegant

When you need me

You need me

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

You run like a criminal

When you need me

You were tongue-tied and elegant

When you need me

Seeker

Lost among the crossways on my path
Thought I might have seen a sign
Or just some light to guide me back alive
Every single choice has led me here

Then you show up
With your wisdom and your dark smoke
And lift me up
From my own grave, from the undertow...

And the options all lead to destruction
Pain that cannot be avoided though I try
You insist on being the bringer of desire
My breath gets thinner the closer you are

You seek salvation and truth
Blind to understand you are fire
You seek salvation and truth
Blind to understand you are death

Then you show up
With your wisdom and your dark smoke
And lift me up
From my own grave, from the undertow...

You seek salvation and truth
Blind to understand you are...

To ABSUM (from the counterpart)

You there hiding, holding breath
Waiting for chaos to show your teeth
Bite the smile of my mask
And show the real tortuous grim

The shadow stuck at my feet
The demon I unknowingly feed
Crawl up the mirror of my mind
And I will let you take the lead

Indeed I'm wrong, done and gone
Never meant, never meant to hurt
But the more I resist the more you dig
And then I'm wrong, done and gone

No presence can make you be
A tearful ghost playing to be me
You think you know the harsh,
The side of life you can not see?

I know you have planted a seed
Took a time for the fruit to be seen
Nothing is surprising after all
Oh, the prize for those who seek!

Wrong and done and gone...

Can't take the one without the other
The dark that shows the brighter
Consider the whole not the pieces
Better run than embrace any further

Shallow Hero

You were a path and a light for too long
Now I see how it falls and I watch you were wrong
I'd give all my life to protect you from harm
But now that you show your true face I am gone

Allow me to open the lock in my soul
Let the demons be out though they will hunt you down
For the hero has fallen and void has become
This deep lost space that I cherished the most

But words are said and feelings get lost
Trigger my nerves shackling the roots
A splinter, a thorn, a knife through the chest
A crossroad to split these bonds for the best

Love your scars
They make you be you
Love your scars
They guide you through life
Love your scars
They show your way home
No more scars
Let light shine deep inside

You draw your frontiers and I know I won't cross
Felt no love for the ones that forgot what you've done
Gave my whole and you threw all away just for good
Spare no trust this has gone way too far, this is war

But words are said and feelings get lost
Trigger my nerves shackling the roots
A splinter, a thorn, a knife through the chest
A crossroad to split these bonds for the best

Love your scars
They make you be you
Love your scars
They guide you through life
Love your scars
They show your way home
No more scars
Let light shine deep inside

Now we ask who will be the first one to break through
Too many steps far away from your throne
To the eyes of the crowds it is just that you're young
Hope the things that you seed ain't the ones you will sow

9

En silencio pasaron los nueve años de este silencioso lugar olvidado. Este rincón de la personalidad que siempre buscó llamar atención pero nunca pretendió incomodar. Este espacio que paga las consecuencias de mundos paralelos y casualidades desafortunadas. Nueve años de intentos de trascender más allá del tiempo. Nueve años de una memoria castigadora. Nueve años de seguir buscando la frase perfecta para cada momento. Nueve años de atestiguar canciones que penetran en lo más íntimo. Nueve años de secretos en palabras y lecturas entre líneas. Nueve años de inspiración por distintos milagros... ¿Qué vendrá después?

Gracias a quien se tomó la molestia de desear feliz cumpleaños.

I'll never love (by Michael Kiwanuka)

I'll never love somebody

I'll never love somebody

Leave me cold

Trouble song in the moonlight

Will be my bride

I'll never need somebody

I'll never need somebody

Leave me alone

A worried mind in the violence

Will be my guide

I'll never hold somebody

I'll never hold somebody

For very long

I make love but only for a night

And I'll be gone

I'll never love somebody

I'll never love somebody

Leave me cold

The trouble song in the moonlight

Will be my bride

Circle/s

Life always turns, it always comes back. Cicles and spirals are the basis of growth. Can not run away from what I am, wether you see it or not is a matter of perception. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Yet it raises a new paradox: am I not what you define of beauty or are you not seeing the calls for help. I am not trapped in a past, I live my day with efforts to become better wondering what's next. Symbols have always been my thing, you knew it right from the start. But they change, spirals fade, ninjas dies, riots awake... it's the names that remain. I am this you read, I am this you see, I am waht you get -never enough-. Always failing to be the ideal me you caught in dreams and prayers. The real me is a disappointment to your reach. But I can't fight who I am. I am this, a self-injured beautiful human being abel to fly and take you (any you) to another dimension through many different ways I adore. Fly with me if you dare, but I have no safety net (neither do you).

So, division is what brings me back to the starting point. What goes around comes around. And maybe you are right about a thing or two... Time will tell. The Wolf turned away and slightly ran off... There is no love in fear, there is no fear in love. There is no risk in hate, There is no safe falling. "There is no escape in gravity". Words can beg no more, a broken soul can't take the beating, a scarred spirit will shatter no more.

Life goes... Will you ever grab it or must you witness it passing through. Sink deep in or stay in the shore. I keep falling. No parachute, no warranty, no remorse. Bless me and I can keep on. Kiss me and I can stay. Slay me and I will resurrect. Life comes... I defy the odds, I've always done. You know my passion and you forgot my madness. Judge me if you wish, yet you do not mold me. Strip me of the memories and you would have lost the richness of a resilient heart. Do as you wish, you kind of always knew how to do it, anyways. Bless you and you vanish.

Though I must state I asked for a peace treaty. Last chances always end up in goodbyes. Played my cards and you broke the rules. So I lose, or you win, or it's the cruelest draw in the world. Empty smiles will not rule the world, mine or yours. What lasts forever? Do you even know? Anyhow, this is what I yelled outloud, you confused the words with desperate cries for war. Mistook me...

Little wolf

Staring into infinity
Dreams and waves are never coming back

My own mortality
Footprints lost along the track

Kneeling to my diety
Begging Him to shed a hand

Sucumbing to frialty
Writing secrets in the sand...

Wash away the sins
Pour some grace within
Scars over my skin
Proud of what I've been

Failing to be what I need
Yet love is the gift you would send back
Broken soul is what I bleed
Eyes of fire through all the black
Laughter from the one I love
An angel sent to show me why
Blessed be my little wolf
Saving me from every cry...

Fear (by Blue October)

All my life

Been running from a pain in me

A feeling I don't understand

Holding me down

Rain on me, underwater

All I am, getting harder

A heavy weight

I carry around.

Today

I don't have to fall apart

I don't have to be afraid

I don't have to let the damage

consume me,

My shadow see through me

Fear in itself

Will reel you in and spit you out

Over and over again

Believe in yourself

And you will walk

Fear in itself

Will use you up and break you down

Like you were never enough

I used to fall, now I get back up.

I'm up here

I'm looking at the way down there

I'm staring through the I don't care

It's staring back at me

The beauty is

I'm learning how to face my beast

Starting now to find some peace

Set myself free

Today,

I don't have to fall apart

I don't have to be afraid

I don't have to let the damage

Consume me,

My shadow see through me

Fear in itself

Will reel you in

And spit you out over and over again

Believe in yourself

and you will walk

Fear in itself

Will use you up and break you down

like you were never enough

I used to fall but now I get back up

I'm moving on

Oh God, just move on

Today,

I don't have to fall apart

I don't have to be afraid....

Get back up

Get up

Fear in itself will use you up

And break you down just like you're

never enough

I used to fall

Breathe,

Ask for more

if you're bitter still

Ask Him to help you carry on.

Una vision:

"Creo q esto es lo mas difícil, ya que describirte es más complicado que entenderte.... 

Enigma, acertijo nunca resuelto...

Ternura latente que nadie conoce pero que es permanente... 

Pasado y futuro solo en tu presente...

Fácil de tentar porque te dejas explorar...

Piel sin color pero con sabor y olor...

Raro en tu especie por tu total originalidad...

Libre de planes pero esclavo de tus ideales...

Antisocial... O más bien precavido ante lo vivido...

Tres colores te marcan blanco negro y morado son quienes te abarcan...

Vives por tu música porque te purifica...

Tu alma respira, escribe y revive...

Ser inspiración... o dar seguridad de que tienes un espectador...

Escribir sobre ti es lo mas difícil que me has pedido, ya que describirte en tu totalidad sería como mentirte ..."

Gone Away by COLD

Gone Away

Do you pray

In the night

Can you appreciate the wind

And I won't care

I won't fight

I need you close to sing

It's the same beginning

Gone away

It's the same old, same old song

Gone away

It's my whole life

In words

And I can't breathe

When you cry

But I'll be there to hold you tight

And I would kill

I would fight

To keep you close

I keep singing the same way

I won't live

If you died

If I can feel you in the wind

And this is me

It's my life

I'll need you close to sing

It's the same beginning

Gone away

It's the same old, same old song

Gone away

It's my whole life

In words

Gone away

It's the same old, same old song

Gone away

It's my whole life

And I can't say

And I don't know

How far

I'll go

And I can't say

And I don't know

How far

I'll go

Gone away

It's the same old, same old song

Gone away

It's my whole life

In words

Gone away

It's the same old, same old song

Gone away

It's my whole life

To my little warrior

FTF 11

En estas andamos... El nuevo miembro de mis (malas) crianzas. FTF 11!

1. Norma Jean - Deathbed Atheist: "Bury your hands in the sand, you will never use them on me again!" Me ayuda a enfocarme en el objetivo!

2. Underøath - In Division: Es el sofocamiento de esta canción lo que me llama la atención, un sentido de ahogo! "I really wish I could reset/rewind"

3. Slipknot - Snuff: "If you love me let me go / if you still care don't ever let me know"... Impressive! The whole lyric shakes my core

4. Marilyn Manson - Four Rusted Horses: "Everyone will come to my funeral to make sure that I stay dead"...

5. Nine Inch Nails - The Perfect Drug: (not so) New found addiction!

6. Love Amongst Ruins - Heaven & Hell: Just to let your mind swim on this one...

7. Deftones - Beauty School: If one person can't get the idea out of this, I'm pretty sure there will come someone else to call it its own.

8. Sal y Mileto - Kubrete La Nose: Esta canción fue un llamado de atención, se convirtió en mantra y hoy vuelve a la vida...

9. Stabbing Westward - Desperate Now:"...but it feels like something is missing, it feels like something inside has died..." Haven't I said that?

10. System Of A Down - Lonely Day: Father's day...

11. Vex Red - Untitled: "This time I mean it!"

12. Limp Bizkit - Walking Away: Well, we do sometimes need to walk away from things we care to have a better look at self!

13. Seether - Truth: Si te diera la verdad, te ayudaría a vivir? "I'm beaten down again!"

14. Skizoo - Grita El Corazón: La radiografía de una tormenta interna... "Abrazar el instante!"

15. Sevendust - This Life: Mi hermoso Matías, esta canción es tuya!

16. Nelly Furtado - Try: Esta canción me derrumbó hasta mis cimientos. "Then I see you standing there wanting more from me, and all I can do is try!"

17. Adele - Someone Like You: Imported from the old continent. Straight through me!! It's so cruel how a song can touch you, make you fly and then crash you down to rock bottom... This is one of those songs...

Para agregar a tu biblioteca... (12 is coming soon...)

Not Again (by Staind)

You feel like you're falling

You've taken the step

In front of you

Is further the truth

And you fall apart

In front of me again

Again

Denial isn't the way to forgiveness

You alway swore that I was wrong

Not again

No taste for the crow you feed me

Not again

It's not a matter if I care

Not again

What an intricate web your weaving

Again and again!

You try not to fall

As the clock fails to sleep

So here we are

Back where we began

Toe to toe I stand in front of you again

Again

Again

Denial isn't the way to forgiveness

You alway swore that I was wrong

Not again

No taste for the crow you feed me

Not again

It's not a matter if I care

Not again

What an intricate web your weaving

Again and again!

Not again

No taste for the crow you feed me

Not again

It's not a matter if I care

Not again

What an intricate web your weaving

Again!

Again!

FTF 10 (atrasado!!!!)

Con casi dos años de atraso (por mi ausencia virtual del blog) y solo con la mera intención de publicar el más reciente compilatorio, les presento FTF 10:

1. Anathema - A Natural Disaster: "No Matter what I say, no matter what I do, I can't change what happened".

2. Böa - Duvet: El soundtrack de Lain, animé japonés sobre la diferencia entre la realidad vivencial y la virtual (it happens...).

3. Porcupine Tree - Time Flies: De repente abrí los ojos y los años habían pasado...

4. Killer And The Star - End Of Summer: "Maybe it's my fault, maybe I'm to blame. Could this be the end of summer?" And yes, I am to blame for everything in the end...

5. Sinch - Cutting All Ties: "I don't know why I even try when my sheltered heart lives a lie". Recuerdo haberla descubierto caminando por Cuenca, pensando en alguien en la capital.

6. Depeche Mode - Rush: I still wish someday we can get a version of this song! "Went looking behind every door for you, and because of the things that I saw for you I spiritually grew"

7. Soda Stereo - Ella Usó Mi Cabeza Como Un Revolver: Pa que mayor explicación! Cuando sonó por primera vez fue impresionante, descubriendo un nuevo mundo.

8. Per Gessle - Hey, I Died And Went To Heaven: I do hear this... And remember the feather

9. Placebo - Ashtray Heart: Corazón de cenicero! Un corazón que duele es un corazón que funciona...

10. Habana Blues - Arenas de Soledad: ¿Cuánto aguanta un corazón sin el latido de creer? Gracias ColdBlue!

11. Alien Ant Farm - Never Meant: "Never meant to do you wrong... to cause you harm"

12. Marilyn Manson - Running To The Edge Of The World: "Sometimes hate is not enought to turn this all to ashes"

13. Of The I - Between Being And Ego: Just about the feeling of the song, from the stream to the rain.

14. Pain Of Salvation - Undertow:"Let me go... let me fly... let my run... let me break... let me bleed... let me drain! LET ME DIE! let me out...!

15. Seether - Careless Whisper: ...guilty feet have got no rythm...

16. Papa Roach - I Almost Told You That I Love You: Just anger on this! (Lost times behind)

17. Slipknot - Dead Memories: "Traded my emotions for a cotract to commit"

18. In Flames - Disconnected: "I feel like s*** but at least I feel something!"

Take it right here

P.D.: Favor contextualizar al tiempo en que fue desarrollado, sept. 2009