The Jester (by Badflower)

Like a jester at the ball

Rub my shoulders with the kings

I was draped in gold and velvet

Breathing in applause

While I was jumping through the rings

And then the cooks would sound a bell

And all the kings would lick their lips

But I couldn't find a placemat

The dinner table's full

And there's no room for me to sit

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Just say you want me, just say you need me

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Does anybody need me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?

With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Lord, I live to entertain

All my pride is in my praise

I hum along with this vibration

And hope to God I make it

If any chord that I could strum

Make me feel less like a man

I'd slam my fingers in the doorway

And shatter all the bones

So I could never strum again

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Just say you want me, just say you need me

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?

With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

FTF 31 - Vacancy

Desperation starts to crawl up my flesh,

01 Norma Jean - Careen: Few bands can lift you up and smash you down so hard like Norma Jean. New album and the honor of opening up the confusion of the emptiness. "Surrender my defense of everything, 'cause I'm over it!"

02 Soulkeeper - Scattered: Pushing up the strength of it all, were needed. "My heart is in pieces, I used it all, less it was beating". Will never stop loving the density of screaming out of pain and feeling the same.

03 Bullet For My Valentine - Leap Of Faith: So many times in the brink of destruction... but "I'm not caving in!"... even though I desire to do so. Melodies that bring the perfect soundtrack to epic moments.

04 Left Behind - What Makes You Hurt: The army of doom banging inside your head. "I hurt all the time and now I just want it, it's like I'm chasing a low point where nothing matters".

05 Whitechapel - Hickory Creek: Just sink in within it. It's worthy.
06 Thrice - The Dark: "I'm not gonna sit in the dark anymore!", crossing a park and discovering a song that was lost in previous hearings of the song. It is just straight and right on cue. Still gives me the chills...
07 Bring Me The Horizon - medicine: "Some people are a lot like clouds, you know? 'Cause life is much brigther when they go". Enough said.
08 Silversun Pickups - Freakazoid: An afternoon, I decided this song was a description of certain soul, always hoping to have a review back. Yet, I indulged myself with the pleasure of living within the song for a while.
09 Mutemath - Voice In The Silence: A man bringing to life a whole song. A melody that can cheer you up and be like the voice in the silence.
10 Highly Suspect - @tddybear: A desperate call, a needed song in the voice of a genious, I wish I was a little more than this.
11 Badflower - 24: "So let me go, so let me die, 'cause I'm too afraid to be alive. I'm giving up on everything. I miss you all, I always will" The last addition to this and became in love of the mood they bring.
12 Son Lux - Whispering: A ride home, trying to figure out the metrics of the song. But that was not the first memory of this song, it was surrendering to the floor for a purple haze above me. No regrets.
13 Cloudkicker - Threaded: A palate cleanser for the next dish.
14 P.O.D. - Circles: "Spinning in circles" a pretty simple metaphore for life the past months.
15 Deafheaven - Near: "Thought I saw you there wishing you were near", carving a way through the soul.
16 Tool - Invincible: Walking home, all the way, a beautiful Friday night, when I was the joke of all and was all day long in the wrong places. It was a birthday, a special birthday and I rather went rogue on my own. A joke, "struggling to remain relevant!".

Played by all, but willing to share a smile for them.