FTF 31 - Vacancy

Desperation starts to crawl up my flesh,

01 Norma Jean - Careen: Few bands can lift you up and smash you down so hard like Norma Jean. New album and the honor of opening up the confusion of the emptiness. "Surrender my defense of everything, 'cause I'm over it!"

02 Soulkeeper - Scattered: Pushing up the strength of it all, were needed. "My heart is in pieces, I used it all, less it was beating". Will never stop loving the density of screaming out of pain and feeling the same.

03 Bullet For My Valentine - Leap Of Faith: So many times in the brink of destruction... but "I'm not caving in!"... even though I desire to do so. Melodies that bring the perfect soundtrack to epic moments.

04 Left Behind - What Makes You Hurt: The army of doom banging inside your head. "I hurt all the time and now I just want it, it's like I'm chasing a low point where nothing matters".

05 Whitechapel - Hickory Creek: Just sink in within it. It's worthy.
06 Thrice - The Dark: "I'm not gonna sit in the dark anymore!", crossing a park and discovering a song that was lost in previous hearings of the song. It is just straight and right on cue. Still gives me the chills...
07 Bring Me The Horizon - medicine: "Some people are a lot like clouds, you know? 'Cause life is much brigther when they go". Enough said.
08 Silversun Pickups - Freakazoid: An afternoon, I decided this song was a description of certain soul, always hoping to have a review back. Yet, I indulged myself with the pleasure of living within the song for a while.
09 Mutemath - Voice In The Silence: A man bringing to life a whole song. A melody that can cheer you up and be like the voice in the silence.
10 Highly Suspect - @tddybear: A desperate call, a needed song in the voice of a genious, I wish I was a little more than this.
11 Badflower - 24: "So let me go, so let me die, 'cause I'm too afraid to be alive. I'm giving up on everything. I miss you all, I always will" The last addition to this and became in love of the mood they bring.
12 Son Lux - Whispering: A ride home, trying to figure out the metrics of the song. But that was not the first memory of this song, it was surrendering to the floor for a purple haze above me. No regrets.
13 Cloudkicker - Threaded: A palate cleanser for the next dish.
14 P.O.D. - Circles: "Spinning in circles" a pretty simple metaphore for life the past months.
15 Deafheaven - Near: "Thought I saw you there wishing you were near", carving a way through the soul.
16 Tool - Invincible: Walking home, all the way, a beautiful Friday night, when I was the joke of all and was all day long in the wrong places. It was a birthday, a special birthday and I rather went rogue on my own. A joke, "struggling to remain relevant!".

Played by all, but willing to share a smile for them.

Breathe Underwater (by Bullet For My Valentine)

My head is a circus

It's all just too much

I guess my best was not good enough

And something is certain

I miss you around

And all that I want is to be with you

You kept me breathing under the water

When everyone else left me to drown

You were the light that shone through the darkness

Now I'm blind 'cause you're not around

I know I'm not perfect

I let you down

I guess that I'm paying the price for it now

You kept me breathing under the water

When everyone else left me to drown

You were the light that shone through the darkness

Now I'm blind 'cause you're not around

I don't know how we got here

But I know I don't belong

I don't know how we got here

Or why I'm holding on

You kept me breathing under the water

When everyone else left me to drown

You were the light that shone through the darkness

Now I'm blind 'cause you're not around

The Dark (by Thrice)

You try and keep me out of sight

You try and keep me out of sight and out of mind

Out of mind

You try and keep me from the light

You try and keep me from the light, but I know it's mine

I know it's mine

You're rigging the game

You're part of the system

You've chosen the way

But you'll never listen when I speak

I'm not gonna wait

I've made my decision

And I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

No I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

You're always telling me you're not

You're always telling me you're not, not enough

And I'm enough

You're always turning back the clock

You're always turning back the clock, but time is up

Time is up

You're rigging the game

You're part of the system

You've chosen the way

But you'll never listen when I speak

I'm not gonna wait

I've made my decision

And I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

No I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

We've taken our knocks

We're not gonna take them anymore

We're not gonna stop

'Cause we've seen the world we're fighting for

So ready or not

Together we're kicking down the door

And we're not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

No, we're not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

Silent tragedy

Knowing I will always bond with tragedy, I
Should have warned myself of all the misery
Desire over any other reasoning, I
Find myself lamenting over my blind faith

Silent whispers on my...

Colors meant to bring me joy now haunt my bones
Keeping to myself the excitement and the pain
Trusted feelings I have killed long time ago, I
Find myself lamenting over numbing days

Silent whispers on my deaf perception
I asked for this then I denied the gift of choice

Silent tragedy no one will ever hear
Cherish secrets that will need to pay with life

Dream of all that could have been if you were free
All the fight and someone else will wear the crown
Shared the scars, the will, the light and all the skin
Find myself lamenting over words unsaid

Silent whispers on my deaf perception
I asked for this then I denied the bliss of choice
Silent tragedy no one will ever hear
Cherish secrets that will need to pay with love

Disaster, delusion, deception... on my fingers
Desire demanding redemption... sacrifice
Disasters, delusion, deception... your sweat
Desire demanding redemption... my soul

Silent whispers on my deaf perception
I asked for this then I denied the bliss of choice
Silent tragedy no one will ever hear
Cherish secrets that will need to pay with love

Silent! Deaf perception
Desire! The bliss of choice
Silent! Will ever hear
Tragedy! Pay with death

Leap Of Faith (by Bullet For My Valentine)

Too many cuts and too many broken bones

Draining the life, burying skeletons

Do or die, this is the feeling I'm craving

Waiting for life to lie (lie)

This is the moment for taking

A leap of faith, I'll

Jump into the fire, now free

I'll take you the edge but it still can't break me

I'm not caving in!

The ring of the bells, feeling you resonate

Into the night, hearing you fade away

Do or die, this is a choice that I'm making

And it feels like I'm living a lie

This is the moment for taking

A leap of faith, I'll

Jump into the fire, now free

I'll take you the edge but it still can't break me

I'm not caving in!

Nothing's gonna kill me, come take me

Closer to the edge but it still can't break me

I'm not caving in!

So fill your lungs, inhale the future

That's screaming out

Release the pressure!

So fill your lungs, inhale the future

That's screaming out

Jump into the fire, now free

I'll take you the edge but it still can't break me

I'm not caving in!

Nothing's gonna kill me, come take me

Closer to the edge but it still can't break me

I'm not caving in!

Jump into the fire

I'm not caving in!

Too many cuts and too many broken bones

Beyond The Pines (by Thrice)

Somewhere down the way, there's a hidden place that anyone

That all of us could find

But our maps have failed, so venture through the veil and realize

That these roads are intertwined

Far beyond those walls, gleaming black and white

Further than our false schemes of wrong and right

Is a field where we can walk

Leaving all our names behind

I will meet you there, beyond the pines

Templed in twilight or dawn

The light and easy air

Tracing the lines on our palms

Somewhere down the road is a place that we can go where everyone

And everything is divine

And when we're all awake, we can finally make and end of these

Divisions in our minds

Far beyond those walls, gleaming black and white

Further than our false schemes of wrong and right

Is a field where we can walk

Leaving all our names behind

I will meet you there, beyond the pines

Templed in twilight or dawn

The light and easy air

Tracing the lines on our palms

And I will meet you there, don't go to sleep

Our souls and feet both bare with grass beneath

The oaths we needn't swear are vast and deep

Our breath will be our prayer, alone, complete

I will meet you there, beyond the pines

Templed in twilight or dawn

The light and easy air

Tracing the lines on our palms

I'll meet you there

Welcome Home (by Hellyeah!)

Far off in the distance, the storm's closing in

The pressure collapsing, bright skies become dim

This scent all around me, give memories new life

Knots that I've loosened still tangled inside

Ominous clouds, no sun in the sky

Is this a metaphor for my tragic demise?

The colors are gray on my canvas of life

The picture's complete, but the paint just won't dry

The smell of rain in the sky

The tears are gone, the well is dry

Why is my feeling of loss like a welcome home?

So welcome home

All the light fades to dark

All that's good gets torn apart

Why is this feeling of loss like a welcome home?

So welcome home

And those dirty little whispers, demon's voice in my head

Angel over my shoulder, evil needs to be fed

Hot flashes turn cold as day turns to night

My head starts to ache because something's not right

Pour salt in my wounds, I'm cut deep inside

Battered and bruised, bones breaking, teeth bite

Tattered and torn, pour gas on my life

You can burn up the book, but the pages survive

The smell of rain in the sky

The tears are gone, the well is dry

Why is my feeling of loss like a welcome home?

So welcome home

All the light fades to dark

All that's good gets torn apart

Why is this feeling of loss like a welcome home?

So welcome home, so welcome home

The sky is falling, the sky is falling down

The ocean's flooding, the oceans are swelling everywhere all around

The fire's burning, fire burns me to the ground

What the fuck was I waiting for?

All you fucking little pigs, I'll blow you down

The smell of rain in the sky

The tears are gone, the well is dry

Why is my feeling of loss like a welcome home?

So welcome home

All the light fades to dark

All that's good gets torn apart

Why is this feeling of loss like a welcome home?

So welcome home, so welcome home

Freakazoid (by Silversun Pickups)

If you’re feeling paranoid

What the hell does that mean

You’d rather be alone

Anonymously

If I’m such a freakazoid

Unable to breathe

(breathe, breathe, breathe)

Do we move along

Or wait and see

I believe you’re trying

To keep us all from dying

Can I pull you home

Away from the middle of the road

Another safety zone

Another way to know

This freakazoid

Who needs a little relief

(relief, relief, relief)

Knows you’re not alone

And wants you to believe...

I believe you’re trying

To keep us all from dying

(Keep us all from dying)

I believe you’re crying

To keep this whole thing flying

(the whole thing comes out flying)

Oh me, oh my

It seems you might be lying

(Keeping us from dying)

I’ll keep on fighting

As long as you keep trying

(As long as you keep trying)

Once again with feeling

Once again with a little more love

Once again I believe

(believe, believe, believe)

That you’re paranoid

I’m a freakazoid

So let’s wait and see

I believe you’re trying

To keep us all from dying

(Keep us all from dying)

I believe you’re crying

To keep this whole thing flying

(The whole thing comes out flying)

Oh me, oh my

It seems you might be lying

(Keep us all from dying)

I’ll keep on fighting

As long as you keep trying

(As long as you keep trying)

Whispering (by Son Lux)

With all your whispering in my ear

You'd think I could tell when you are near

Now all that's rapping at my door

Are ghosts and memories anymore

Be here now, don't you run away

All your garments lay disarray

Be here now, don't you run away

medicine (by Bring Me The Horizon)

Some people are a lot like clouds, you know

'Cause life's so much brighter when they go

You rained on my heart for far too long

Couldn't see the thunder for the storm

Because I cut my teeth and bit my tongue

'Till my mouth was dripping blood

But I never dished the dirt, just held my breath

While you dragged me through the mud

I don't know why I tried to save you 'cause

I can't save you from yourself

When all you give a shit about is everybody else

And you just can't quit, why don't you deal with it?

I think it's time to stop

You need a taste of your own medicine

'Cause I'm sick to death of swallowing

Watch me take the wheel like you, not feel like you

Act like nothing's real like you

So, I'm sorry for this

It might sting a bit

Some people are a lot like clouds, you know

'Cause life's so much brighter when they go

And I spent too long in a place I don't belong

I couldn't see the thunder for the storm

But you won't admit, why don't you get a grip?

'Cause you can't keep going on and on and on and on like this

And you just can't quit, why don't you deal with it?

I think it's time to stop

You need a taste of your own medicine

'Cause I'm sick to death of swallowing

Watch me take the wheel like you, not feel like you

Act like nothing's real like you

So, I'm sorry for this

It might sting a bit

'Cause I cut my teeth and bit my tongue

'Till my mouth was dripping blood

But I never dished the dirt, just held my breath

While you dragged me through the mud

And you just can't quit, why don't you deal with it?

I think it's time to stop

You need a taste of your own medicine

'Cause I'm sick to death of swallowing

Watch me take the wheel like you, not feel like you

Act like nothing's real like you

So, I'm sorry for this

It might sting a bit

Some people are a lot like clouds, you know

'Cause life's so much brighter when they go

FTF 30 - End was nigh

I needed to let go, but I just kept on... Nothing would be the same!

01 Jonathan Davis - What It Is: When faith becomes a bigger concept than a Sunday activity. Believing in yourself and knowing you have a purpose much deeper than your day by day... being whatever it is...

02 Marilyn Manson - The Nobodies: Never before have I felt more like a Nobody, the useless and disposable in many ways. Another statistic but not a reason for peace.

03 Mike Shinoda - Lift Off: Songs about the end, about saying goodbye and just lifting off... besides, any song with Chino's voice will have a deeper meaning always. Let go!

04 30 Seconds To Mars - Great Wide Open: A hymn for freedom, letting all out and be set free. Well, yes, I am the devil. An analogy that starts to settle more and more in my mind.

05 Twenty One Pilots - Bandito: October changed my life. I came to realize it could all change if I was brave enough. In front of the sea, in the white sand, bottling up emotions and going further with my book. The center of this colelction. "Sahlo Folina"

06 Arcane Roots - Landslide: The break up of this magnificent band was a bad hit. But this melod brought all together to finish off with the casual tear Arcane Roots used to bring... "but I pray for it!" Let go!

07 The Black Queen - One Edge of Two: So much truth while climbing on to the edge of two worlds, still chosing the one that hurts the most. Captivating song and Greg Puciato's voice just ... Let go!

08 Danger Mouse - Two Against One: Let go! A fight among people with bullets in their mouths. "Just you and me against me". A selfish triangle of confusion... A different vibe.

09 Fantastic Negrito - About A Bird: A song with a name on the rythm. Dedicated to Ms. Jones. "Take a chance on me, cause no one else will".

10 Thrice - My Soul: "What if I'm broken from the start? What if I never heal?".

11 Blue October - All That We Are: Lingering on memories of when these songs would be a motivation, not a trigger for anxiety. 

12 Chevelle - Glimpse Of The Con: A ride home, a song with a truth to shatter me to pieces, maybe the reason for this collection. October was a month of changes, of falling hard, and you did not even notice, did you?

13 Shinedown - special: When all hope is lost you realize that "you're not special". Take the spotlight off, step down of your cross, there is no divine power within you. We are regular, common but deep.

14 Snow Patrol - What If This Is All The Love You Ever Get?: Maybe that is question, what if all I had was all what was left for me? What if I wasted eveything that was meant for me? Let go!

15 Seether - Against The Wall (Acoustic): A Seether punch and far harder in acoustic. "And if I dare to believe at all, it leaves me deflated". Wise words, and the story of my life, the harder you fly, the harder the fall.

16 Otep - Be Brave: Not all should be lost, there should be always hope to keep on... "Could you be happy if it was just you and I?"... actions show it can't be like that.

17 Smile Empty Soul - Noose: You wish you were a god and get all the attention, wish there was nothing but you around this whole galaxy, "but I don't, no I don't, no I don't believe in you." An scalating reflection on what is truth and what will choke you down.

18 Idles - June: "Baby shoes for sale, never worn"... the emotions within the song will take you for a heavy ride. It could have been sang to someone, but it would have been harsh. "Amend, amend, amend, amen!"

19 Coheed And Cambria - Lucky Stars: A song in blue. And will always be thankful, although I know I am just a petty game for your lonesome hours. But, you know what? I love just that.

Need a change, need to let it all go. End was nigh...