FTF 34 - The Soundtrack

A compilation of songs mostly caught from series and films that meant moments of deep understanding.

1. Barns Courtney - Fire
2. Overcoats - Leave The Light On
3. Ruelle - Secrets And Lies
4. Shellby Merry - When The Night Is Long
5. Damien Rice - Delicate
6. CHVRCHES - ZVVL
7. FOALS - Into The Surf
8. Hozier - Angel Of Small Death & The Codeine Scene
9. SoHa - Mil Pasos: Un día o jamás
10. Andy Powell - Pretty Little Lies
11. Michael Kiwanuka - Love & Hate
12. Draco Rosa - Que Se Joda El Dolor
13. Through Fire - Breathe
14. Skillet - Believe
15. Asking Alexandria - I Won't Give In
16. Bad Wolves - Hear Me Now
17. Five Finger Death Punch - Brighter Side Of Grey
18. Emigrate - I'm Not Afraid

If FTF is the soundtrack of my life, this special collection is the soundtrack of the soundtrack. The core of this was finally getting Mil Pasos in the right place...

Have a dose.

Into The Surf (by Foals)

If you come again

I'll be sure to send the tide to come meet you

And if I come again

Please be sure to send the moon to come meet me

I'll eat up all your pain

Take in all the blame

Be that someone to complain to

I'll be like water, when you rise

Plant a jasmine in the night

When I return there's a moon pool on fire

Into the surf, again

There's a moon pool in bloom

And if you come again

I'll be sure to send the tide to come meet you

And if I come again

Please be sure to send the moon to come meet me

There's a lighthouse in the dark

A garden in the past

Under bruisings of a night sky

Be like water, when I rise

Plant a jasmine in the night

When I return there's a moon pool on fire

Into the surf, again

There's a moon pool in bloom

There's a serpent on the beach

If I'm out of reach

Place a garland in the sea for me

When the tide comes rolling in

Please be sure to send a blood moon for me

A garland in the sea

And if I don't make it home

Wrap the jasmine round my bones

A blood moon for me

A garland in the sea

And if I don't make it home

Wrap the jasmine round my bones

A garland in the sea

A blood moon for me

FTF 33 - The Lockdown

Chaos has been a part of the path. And so it is...

1. Korn - Surrender to Failure
2. Red - Only Fight
3.  Code Orange - Who I Am
4. Loathe - I Let It In And It Took Everything…
5. Limbs - Crossed
6. Norma Jean - Safety Last
7. Machine Head - Circle The Drain
8. Eldest 11 - Cut Dawn
9. Five Finger Death Punch - Darkness Settles In
10. Atreyu - Super Hero: A song to be proud of my heir!
11. Scott Stap - Red Clouds
12. Cold - We All Love
13. Billie Eilish - When The Party's Over
14. Mark Morton - All I Had To Lose
15. Poppy - Sick Of The Sun
16. Incubus - On Without Me
17. Twenty One Pilots - Neon Gravestones
18. Foals - Neptune

And it goes on and on and on...

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Seeker

Lost among the crossways on my path
Thought I might have seen a sign
Or just some light to guide me back alive
Every single choice has led me here

Then you show up
With your wisdom and your dark smoke
And lift me up
From my own grave, from the undertow...

And the options all lead to destruction
Pain that cannot be avoided though I try
You insist on being the bringer of desire
My breath gets thinner the closer you are

You seek salvation and truth
Blind to understand you are fire
You seek salvation and truth
Blind to understand you are death

Then you show up
With your wisdom and your dark smoke
And lift me up
From my own grave, from the undertow...

You seek salvation and truth
Blind to understand you are...

FTF 32

Winds of swift change, but nothing ever gets through.

01 Tool - 7empest: Around the song there's a story about a little boy and bad news on him, and a tempest must be just that, "A tempest must be just that...", thank you sweetness.
02 Slipknot - Unsainted: Images of the numbers shredding this live, first time with the view of perfect destruction. "Im holding on to letting go!"
03 Hellyeah - Welcome Home: Passing over is a feeling much bigger than death... it has to do with separation ot just finding the place where you can call home. Anyways, chains must be broken.
04 Badflower - The Jester: When you find yourself just playing around for the fun of it and living for the applause and laughter of those above you. "Is there anybody out there looking out for me?". Loneliness in the middle of a crowd.
05 Twenty One Pilots - Leave The City: This one was the last addition, a tuesday night walking home, needing to feel the burning of feeling, of twisted feelings growing back. "They know that it's almost over...". Will always love this album, the immersive experience of hearing it back to back while leaving the city.
06 Keane - Stupid Things: A memory of one of the songs that were shared with a purple soul. All lies, all games, all nonsense... but the feeling remained.
07 LP - Lost On You: A song that came from More and it is a reminder that there are more things to come. Pictures of working out, tattoos and more.
08 Dido - Hurricanes: Taking risks to face hurricanes. Nothing left to say here, thanks Blue Heart.
09 Gorillaz - Fire Flies: A song just to let yourself get lost in melodies and find a safe place to hide from all that scares you.
10 CHVRCHES - God's Plan: "Shaped and defined by God's plan", those days are long gone, belonging was a word that used to have a meaning. Now the plan has no strings...
11 Silversun Pickups - Dots and Dashes (Enough Already): After almost a decade I came back to this song, I remember walking late night over an avenue, when I wished I was invisible through the streets so cars would not dare to stop. Anyways, "I'm already cursed"
12 Thrice - Beyond The Pines: I remember standing on a corner, late night, hearing this song on repeat, thinking of a place in my imagination were no problem shall touch me. Thrice striking down on my soul again.
13 Bullet For My Valentine - Breathe Underwater: The symbol of water and drowning has been a constant through all these melodies, disaster coming, cleansing and the end approaching like a ghost... "I don't know how we got here, but I know I don't belong"...
14 Ghost - Cirice: A new mantra repeated endlessly... "can't you see that your lost without me".
15 Linkin Park - Pushing Me Away: The feeling that for almost 20 years was held inside, the feeling of holding on to everything for the sake of keeping the status quo. Pushing myself away, anyway.

And more shall come before we set free...

Hurricanes (by Dido)

I wanna wake up

With your weight by my side

And I wanna think that

You look good as you rise

And I wanna turn to you

Turn around by your side

And I wanna think

But not to say

Let me face

The sound and fury

Let me face

Hurricanes

And I wanna see you

As you walk through the door

And time will make us

Some ways less and some ways more

And I wanna talk of nothing

As the world passes by

And I wanna think

But not to say

Let me face

The sound and fury

Let me face

Hurricanes

Let me not turn away

From happiness or pain

Just not to run away

In my heart and in my head

Let me face

Hurricanes

Hurricane

Let me face

The sound and fury

Let me face

Hurricanes

The Jester (by Badflower)

Like a jester at the ball

Rub my shoulders with the kings

I was draped in gold and velvet

Breathing in applause

While I was jumping through the rings

And then the cooks would sound a bell

And all the kings would lick their lips

But I couldn't find a placemat

The dinner table's full

And there's no room for me to sit

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Just say you want me, just say you need me

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Does anybody need me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?

With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Lord, I live to entertain

All my pride is in my praise

I hum along with this vibration

And hope to God I make it

If any chord that I could strum

Make me feel less like a man

I'd slam my fingers in the doorway

And shatter all the bones

So I could never strum again

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Just say you want me, just say you need me

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?

With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

FTF 31 - Vacancy

Desperation starts to crawl up my flesh,

01 Norma Jean - Careen: Few bands can lift you up and smash you down so hard like Norma Jean. New album and the honor of opening up the confusion of the emptiness. "Surrender my defense of everything, 'cause I'm over it!"

02 Soulkeeper - Scattered: Pushing up the strength of it all, were needed. "My heart is in pieces, I used it all, less it was beating". Will never stop loving the density of screaming out of pain and feeling the same.

03 Bullet For My Valentine - Leap Of Faith: So many times in the brink of destruction... but "I'm not caving in!"... even though I desire to do so. Melodies that bring the perfect soundtrack to epic moments.

04 Left Behind - What Makes You Hurt: The army of doom banging inside your head. "I hurt all the time and now I just want it, it's like I'm chasing a low point where nothing matters".

05 Whitechapel - Hickory Creek: Just sink in within it. It's worthy.
06 Thrice - The Dark: "I'm not gonna sit in the dark anymore!", crossing a park and discovering a song that was lost in previous hearings of the song. It is just straight and right on cue. Still gives me the chills...
07 Bring Me The Horizon - medicine: "Some people are a lot like clouds, you know? 'Cause life is much brigther when they go". Enough said.
08 Silversun Pickups - Freakazoid: An afternoon, I decided this song was a description of certain soul, always hoping to have a review back. Yet, I indulged myself with the pleasure of living within the song for a while.
09 Mutemath - Voice In The Silence: A man bringing to life a whole song. A melody that can cheer you up and be like the voice in the silence.
10 Highly Suspect - @tddybear: A desperate call, a needed song in the voice of a genious, I wish I was a little more than this.
11 Badflower - 24: "So let me go, so let me die, 'cause I'm too afraid to be alive. I'm giving up on everything. I miss you all, I always will" The last addition to this and became in love of the mood they bring.
12 Son Lux - Whispering: A ride home, trying to figure out the metrics of the song. But that was not the first memory of this song, it was surrendering to the floor for a purple haze above me. No regrets.
13 Cloudkicker - Threaded: A palate cleanser for the next dish.
14 P.O.D. - Circles: "Spinning in circles" a pretty simple metaphore for life the past months.
15 Deafheaven - Near: "Thought I saw you there wishing you were near", carving a way through the soul.
16 Tool - Invincible: Walking home, all the way, a beautiful Friday night, when I was the joke of all and was all day long in the wrong places. It was a birthday, a special birthday and I rather went rogue on my own. A joke, "struggling to remain relevant!".

Played by all, but willing to share a smile for them.

Breathe Underwater (by Bullet For My Valentine)

My head is a circus

It's all just too much

I guess my best was not good enough

And something is certain

I miss you around

And all that I want is to be with you

You kept me breathing under the water

When everyone else left me to drown

You were the light that shone through the darkness

Now I'm blind 'cause you're not around

I know I'm not perfect

I let you down

I guess that I'm paying the price for it now

You kept me breathing under the water

When everyone else left me to drown

You were the light that shone through the darkness

Now I'm blind 'cause you're not around

I don't know how we got here

But I know I don't belong

I don't know how we got here

Or why I'm holding on

You kept me breathing under the water

When everyone else left me to drown

You were the light that shone through the darkness

Now I'm blind 'cause you're not around

The Dark (by Thrice)

You try and keep me out of sight

You try and keep me out of sight and out of mind

Out of mind

You try and keep me from the light

You try and keep me from the light, but I know it's mine

I know it's mine

You're rigging the game

You're part of the system

You've chosen the way

But you'll never listen when I speak

I'm not gonna wait

I've made my decision

And I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

No I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

You're always telling me you're not

You're always telling me you're not, not enough

And I'm enough

You're always turning back the clock

You're always turning back the clock, but time is up

Time is up

You're rigging the game

You're part of the system

You've chosen the way

But you'll never listen when I speak

I'm not gonna wait

I've made my decision

And I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

No I'm not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

We've taken our knocks

We're not gonna take them anymore

We're not gonna stop

'Cause we've seen the world we're fighting for

So ready or not

Together we're kicking down the door

And we're not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

No, we're not

Gonna sit in the dark anymore

Silent tragedy

Knowing I will always bond with tragedy, I
Should have warned myself of all the misery
Desire over any other reasoning, I
Find myself lamenting over my blind faith

Silent whispers on my...

Colors meant to bring me joy now haunt my bones
Keeping to myself the excitement and the pain
Trusted feelings I have killed long time ago, I
Find myself lamenting over numbing days

Silent whispers on my deaf perception
I asked for this then I denied the gift of choice

Silent tragedy no one will ever hear
Cherish secrets that will need to pay with life

Dream of all that could have been if you were free
All the fight and someone else will wear the crown
Shared the scars, the will, the light and all the skin
Find myself lamenting over words unsaid

Silent whispers on my deaf perception
I asked for this then I denied the bliss of choice
Silent tragedy no one will ever hear
Cherish secrets that will need to pay with love

Disaster, delusion, deception... on my fingers
Desire demanding redemption... sacrifice
Disasters, delusion, deception... your sweat
Desire demanding redemption... my soul

Silent whispers on my deaf perception
I asked for this then I denied the bliss of choice
Silent tragedy no one will ever hear
Cherish secrets that will need to pay with love

Silent! Deaf perception
Desire! The bliss of choice
Silent! Will ever hear
Tragedy! Pay with death