REMEMBERING NOVEMBER...

And once again there's the flood
Just when I thought I was finally dry
The reasons I have left in me
Are broken words and your goodbye
Maybe I'm too sure of what is good
Too certain of the things to come
But as everything else in my life
I seem to love the times I'm wrong
Left with nothing but regrets
The only way I can end up
Wasn't ready to go and fly
'cause my wings are still in your hands

And once again my fate is done
Everything spins and turns to red
It's hard to say I wanted this
Seems I have chosen to be afraid
I should bite my tongue for now
A million words were killed with me
Roll down the intentions to dream
This lapse of reason is what I'll be!
Wandering on in a place can't reach
But staring down to see what lays
Several damaged invisible scars
My body flees but my souls stays

Please don't save me
This time I'll go down all the way
Please don't save me
My heart is in a safe place
Please don't save me
I'll feel less pain after today
Please don't save me
I'll find your face when I awake

Originally written: November 3rd, 2007

TIMELESS TRAIN

The first ride living again today
Same route, same thoughts just a different day
Tell me I’m stuck and I can’t learn to lose
No need to, there’s no meaning for your truth
I know how to lose, ‘cause I lost you
And with you my hope, my warmness, my soul
Not your fault I know, not your will either
Just the path that was written for you, whatever!

I’ll stay living the same ride time and time again
It doesn’t help; it just increases the pain,
But the way out of this timeless train
Is to count to ten and then start again

I’ll keep sleeping, slipping away
There are no strings to keep me here
All the intensity is meant to prevail
Can’t allow myself to break in FEAR

I close my eyes while the movement grows
All my mind drowns in pictures that are frost
And words are drawn in all my emptiness
Voices, songs, scents, land marking my worthlessness
Faster we move, coming closer to our ground
Faked smiles are born in me, a counterfeit clown
This is what we chose and that’s the price
Further now, we all lose but nobody cries.

And find exits is my desire…
Can’t keep your face…
Torturing me…
I still miss this…
LET IT ALL COME AGAIN!!!