Slipping by O'Brother

You’re a place I cannot leave

A space I cannot see

A pitfall underneath

I’m slipping

You’re a poison in my teeth

A tongue I cannot speak

A pitfall underneath

I’m slipping

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of getting even

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of just leaving

You’re loss I cannot grieve

A truth I disbelieve

A pitfall underneath and

I’m slipping

It’s a tangled web

We weave drunk on pleasantries

A pitfall underneath and

I’m slipping

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of getting even

Devil in your bed

I’m pulling punches instead of just leaving

 

Jerk by Oliver Tree

You say you don't want me

You call me good for nothing straight to my face

You say you don't need me

You call me good for nothing, a waste of space

Don't remind me

I'm minding my own damn business

Don't try to find me

I'm better left alone in this

It doesn't surprise me

Do you really think that I could care

If you really don't like me

Find somebody else

It could be anyone else out there

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

One thing

When you're angry, you're a jerk

And then you treat me like I'm worth nothing

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

It'll happen again

I'll watch it happen over and over again

You say you don't want me

You call me good for nothing straight to my face

You say you don't need me

You call me good for nothing, a waste of space

I watch the walls caving in on me

I'm sick of feeling so fucking lonely

By now I've given up all hope

I guess I'm better off alone

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

One thing

When you're angry, you're a jerk

And then you treat me like I'm worth nothing

Don't fret

I don't ever wanna see you

And I never wanna meet you again

It'll happen again

I'll watch it happen over and over again

384 400

Dreamt about the moon last night
(You were) dressed in black and yet you'd shine
(I heard) you were talking 'bout your time
(That you'd) wait for us to reunite

(You have it all)

Dreamt about your gloomy face
(Yet I'd) knew it was your soul and grace
(I could) hear the laughter I would chase
(And you) offered me the chance we slayed

(You have it all)
Don't waste your purity on chaos
(You have it all)
Your smile is granted up above
(You have it all)
384 thousand you call home
(You have it all)
Don't come closer just for laughs

Dreamt about the space between
(There's no) way for me to reach you now
(If I'd) meant to go would not get through
(And you) never stayed still for long

(You have it all)

Dreamt about my broken soul
(I will) always have my eyes on you
(I said) sun will fade but I'd remain
(Sadly) open eyes will show the truth

(You have it all)
Don't waste your purity on chaos
(You have it all)
Your smile is granted up above
(You have it all)
384 thousand you call home
(You have it all)
Don't come closer just for laughs

Wandering across the space between
384 400
384 400
384 400

FTF 36

Learning to live in a new normality... still afraid but kept safe within these songs...

1. Lamb Of God - Bloodshot Eyes: Angst ridden kickstart.
2. Bad/Love - DMU
3. Imminence - Wake Me Up: I'm going under.
4. Gojira - Another World
5. Seether - Drift Away: The song that set this off. Who are you?
6. O'Brother - Killing Spree: Drink my madness if you want to drown
7. Marilyn Manson - SOLVE COAGULA: I'm not special, I'm just broken and I don't wanna be fixed.
8. Like A Villain - You Got It: New discovery.
9. Deftones - The Spell Of Mathematics: Bathtubs that would be the perfect scenario for this all.
10. scarlxrd - SAVE YXUR GRACE
11. Ihsahn - Roads (Portishead cover): This song was meant to be here for at least two decades.
12. Son Lux - Plans We Made: I'm afraid to let you go.
13. Ruelle - The Other Side
14. Gorillaz - Broken: The feeling left after spending weeks together.
15. Glass Animal - Your Love (Déjà Vu): A Blue song.
16. Biffy Clyro - Instant History
17. The Pineapple Thief - Demons: 'cause I've got demons. Yeah, you should know.

18. Good Tiger - If You Weren't My Son I'd Hug You

If you're curious, here it is...

Drift Away (by Seether)

Don't let anyone cry on your shoulder

Don't let misery bring you down

Beauty fades away as you get older

Such a shame that you hate yourself

When I saw the feelings go to waste

But it all comes as no surprise

And I feel I let it slip away

Left so hollow and dead inside

And I realize I was too afraid

So much wasted time

I feel you drift away

On the surface it seems like I'm colder

Underneath it all I'm not fine

You do well in the eyes of beholders

But I feel ugly as sin inside

When I saw the feelings go to waste

But it all comes as no surprise

And I feel I let it slip away

Left so hollow and dead inside

And I realize I was too afraid

So much wasted time

I feel you drift away

Who are you to let me bleed?

Who are you to set me free?

When I saw the feelings go to waste

But it all comes as no surprise

And I feel I let it slip away

Left so hollow and dead inside

And I realize I was too afraid

So much wasted time

I feel you drift away

Locus (by O'Brother)

I woke up in the in-between

And my head expands

My head expands

Muttering words of prophecy

From a fever dream

You shared with me

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

You run like a criminal

When you need me

You were tongue-tied and elegant

When you need me

Love is careless, love is blind

Love is envious

I'm envious

Always thought it was hard to find

But I'm oblivious

Oblivious

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

You run like a criminal

When you need me

You were tongue-tied and elegant

When you need me

You need me

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

I am right here, where I've always been

Further up and further in

You run like a criminal

When you need me

You were tongue-tied and elegant

When you need me

SOLVE COAGULA by Marilyn Manson

You are the one

Tore off both your arms

Gouged out your eyes

And ripped out your own tongue

So listen

I'm not special

I'm just broken

And I don't wanna be fixed

No one else

I, no one else I

Wanna be like

So I stayed the same

Like nobody else

So you think you can sing or clap

Well all you need is an ear

So listen

I'm not special

I'm just broken

And I don't wanna be fixed

No one else

I, no one else I

Wanna be like

So I stayed the same

Like nobody else

I'm not special

I'm just broken

And I don't wanna be fixed

 

FTF 35

Months of stress, anxiety and fear of going out.

1. Hatari - Hatrid Mun Sigra
2. Figures - Matrix Love
3. Silverstein - Infinite
4. Bring Me The Horizon - Parasite Eve
5.  Marilyn Manson - Threats of Romance: I want you damaged
6. Incubus - Absolution calling: The opposite of falling
7. Twenty One Pilots - Level of Concern
8. Norah Jones - Were You Watching
9. Bush - Undone
10. The Exies - This Is The Sound
11. Life Of Agony - I Surrender
12. Memento - Blister
13. Bad Omens - Limits
14. Limbs - Blister
15. Loathe - A Sad Cartoon
16. O'Brother - Locus: You run like a criminal
17. Slipknot - Solway Firth

Quarantine it...

FTF 34 - The Soundtrack

A compilation of songs mostly caught from series and films that meant moments of deep understanding.

1. Barns Courtney - Fire
2. Overcoats - Leave The Light On
3. Ruelle - Secrets And Lies
4. Shellby Merry - When The Night Is Long
5. Damien Rice - Delicate
6. CHVRCHES - ZVVL
7. FOALS - Into The Surf
8. Hozier - Angel Of Small Death & The Codeine Scene
9. SoHa - Mil Pasos: Un día o jamás
10. Andy Powell - Pretty Little Lies
11. Michael Kiwanuka - Love & Hate
12. Draco Rosa - Que Se Joda El Dolor
13. Through Fire - Breathe
14. Skillet - Believe
15. Asking Alexandria - I Won't Give In
16. Bad Wolves - Hear Me Now
17. Five Finger Death Punch - Brighter Side Of Grey
18. Emigrate - I'm Not Afraid

If FTF is the soundtrack of my life, this special collection is the soundtrack of the soundtrack. The core of this was finally getting Mil Pasos in the right place...

Have a dose.

Into The Surf (by Foals)

If you come again

I'll be sure to send the tide to come meet you

And if I come again

Please be sure to send the moon to come meet me

I'll eat up all your pain

Take in all the blame

Be that someone to complain to

I'll be like water, when you rise

Plant a jasmine in the night

When I return there's a moon pool on fire

Into the surf, again

There's a moon pool in bloom

And if you come again

I'll be sure to send the tide to come meet you

And if I come again

Please be sure to send the moon to come meet me

There's a lighthouse in the dark

A garden in the past

Under bruisings of a night sky

Be like water, when I rise

Plant a jasmine in the night

When I return there's a moon pool on fire

Into the surf, again

There's a moon pool in bloom

There's a serpent on the beach

If I'm out of reach

Place a garland in the sea for me

When the tide comes rolling in

Please be sure to send a blood moon for me

A garland in the sea

And if I don't make it home

Wrap the jasmine round my bones

A blood moon for me

A garland in the sea

And if I don't make it home

Wrap the jasmine round my bones

A garland in the sea

A blood moon for me

FTF 33 - The Lockdown

Chaos has been a part of the path. And so it is...

1. Korn - Surrender to Failure
2. Red - Only Fight
3.  Code Orange - Who I Am
4. Loathe - I Let It In And It Took Everything…
5. Limbs - Crossed
6. Norma Jean - Safety Last
7. Machine Head - Circle The Drain
8. Eldest 11 - Cut Dawn
9. Five Finger Death Punch - Darkness Settles In
10. Atreyu - Super Hero: A song to be proud of my heir!
11. Scott Stap - Red Clouds
12. Cold - We All Love
13. Billie Eilish - When The Party's Over
14. Mark Morton - All I Had To Lose
15. Poppy - Sick Of The Sun
16. Incubus - On Without Me
17. Twenty One Pilots - Neon Gravestones
18. Foals - Neptune

And it goes on and on and on...

Want it? Get it!