FTF 29 - The Softer Death

...then the weather cahnged!

01. God Is An Astronaut - Komorebi: As the protagonist approaches the demise, his mind goes blank and the contemplation arises...
02. A Perfect Circle - Feathers: "Sadness like a pendulum", a definition of the constant ups and downs. The weight of all the past will never turn to feathers.
03. Son Lux - Surrounded: Chaos but a feeling in the center of it all: history (will it ever be deleted?).
04. Marilyn Manson - Kill4Me: Maybe all he needed was the one who would kill. Yet, it went the other way. The killer was killed. Blame me.
05. Underøath - I Gave Up: After all the longing, the efforts and the turmoil, there was just one door left unopen: giving up.
06. 10 Years - Ghosts: Describing an expertice: "It takes dying to know how to live as ghosts". Death is nigh!
07. Skyharbor - Kaikoma: The Wolf is calling, "Stay with me, come lose yourself, far into the wilderness". There is so much that can't go unnoticed.
08. Thrice - The Grey: The only path left to follow is to lean in the grey.
09. System Of A Down - Roulette: Do I know how I feel when I'm around you? The lovely roulette of confusion, was it a smile or was it a tear?
10. Ghost - Life Eternal: In death we shall be together for a life eternal. And longing for you forever.
11. 36 Crazyfists - Dark Corners: The protagonists faces all that's done and there's one idea left... "And I was wrong to think that I'd be immune to this". It all carries forward to a crossroad...
12. Snow Patrol - Life And Death: The struggle of the oppoites and the way through is blurred, neither of us knows how it ends.
13. Kali Uchis - Killer: Then, in a moment of clarity, the true killer has been spotted. It was him all along...
14. André 3000 - Me&My (Bury Your Parents): Just the thought of death can be helpful for the better understanding of the world.
15. Ben Howard - Small Things: Every little detail put me aside. All the world has gone mad and I fell with it all.
16. Gin Wigmore - Cold Cave: "I need a heartbreak", not for an hour or a day. It needed to stop.
17. Kimbra - Version Of Me: The last time forgiveness is asked for. But please, as a last resort, trust there´s a better version of me, the protagonist does have a future. Can it be?
18. Zeal And Ardor - Built On Ashes: There is no coincidence the end is within the Zeal. Who is meant to die here? The protagonist? The muse lives on.

What comes next? There's nothing after the Z.

FTF 28 - The Harder Death

Songs to listen on the death row, get adrenaline pumping..

01. Parkway Drive - Wishing Wells: Set the record straight and face your God.

02. Caliban - Masquerade (Ft. Head): The mask was over my own face, now we're "Breaking away 'cause you're free"
03. Underøath - On My Teeth: "What you believe.. get over it...", realizing you gave in vain to the one and waited in vain for an answer. Where were you?

04. The Plot In You - NOT JUST BREATHING: When death approach you realize you are alive and not just breathing, can feel the blood on my veins willing to bathe the truth.

05. Greyhaven - White Lighters: "I’m not leaving your head, we’re just leaving the Earth". Into my own state of mind.

06. Slaves - Warning From My Demons: Coming to terms my life always told me it is hard to be loved and still working on it. Seems I do need pain to get through

07. Five Finger Death Punch - Stuck In My Ways: The warning I should always put on my forehead before a smile can be born: "Run away, get away, leave me behind you, I'm stuck in my ways" 

08. As I Lay Dying - My Own Grave: The centerpiece of this all: "There is no one else to blame". Always the last song to fit in each one defines the concept and it all falls in the right place.

09. Throwdown - This Continuum: There is a special place designed for me alone in there, I will never join you there. And it is all a Spiral!

10. Machine Head - Kaleidoscope: Another hymn for one reason to be here, music, even when there's no hope. "And if I'm lost, I don't want to be found... haunted by sound"... There is the muse.

11. Gojira - Stranded: "Don't lock the door on me", I would die but sometimes, death brings life. I'm stranded in the dark, in the cold... in the night...

12. Breaking Benjamin - Feed The Wolf: The animal that has lost it all. Will I make it through the world?

13. Of Mice & Men - Unbreakable: Nevermind the chant, yet I am willing to the remain. The  firestorm comes from above and I know I must pay for all.

14. Ghost - See The Light: Glad to have found this band right here and right now. "Everyday that you feed me with hate I grow stronger".

15. Korn - Die Yet Another Night: "Nobody wants you, you're a dead man"

16. We Are Band Nerds - Underwater: All the lies, all the hurt and all the hate make my world come over myself, can't breath under the weight of all my consequences.

17. Memento - Figure 8: Playing on infinity because the end is the beginning of the end of the beginning... And so forth!

Then just breath in and let the weather change...

To ABSUM (from the counterpart)

You there hiding, holding breath
Waiting for chaos to show your teeth
Bite the smile of my mask
And show the real tortuous grim

The shadow stuck at my feet
The demon I unknowingly feed
Crawl up the mirror of my mind
And I will let you take the lead

Indeed I'm wrong, done and gone
Never meant, never meant to hurt
But the more I resist the more you dig
And then I'm wrong, done and gone

No presence can make you be
A tearful ghost playing to be me
You think you know the harsh,
The side of life you can not see?

I know you have planted a seed
Took a time for the fruit to be seen
Nothing is surprising after all
Oh, the prize for those who seek!

Wrong and done and gone...

Can't take the one without the other
The dark that shows the brighter
Consider the whole not the pieces
Better run than embrace any further