FTF 30 - End was nigh

I needed to let go, but I just kept on... Nothing would be the same!

01 Jonathan Davis - What It Is: When faith becomes a bigger concept than a Sunday activity. Believing in yourself and knowing you have a purpose much deeper than your day by day... being whatever it is...

02 Marilyn Manson - The Nobodies: Never before have I felt more like a Nobody, the useless and disposable in many ways. Another statistic but not a reason for peace.

03 Mike Shinoda - Lift Off: Songs about the end, about saying goodbye and just lifting off... besides, any song with Chino's voice will have a deeper meaning always. Let go!

04 30 Seconds To Mars - Great Wide Open: A hymn for freedom, letting all out and be set free. Well, yes, I am the devil. An analogy that starts to settle more and more in my mind.

05 Twenty One Pilots - Bandito: October changed my life. I came to realize it could all change if I was brave enough. In front of the sea, in the white sand, bottling up emotions and going further with my book. The center of this colelction. "Sahlo Folina"

06 Arcane Roots - Landslide: The break up of this magnificent band was a bad hit. But this melod brought all together to finish off with the casual tear Arcane Roots used to bring... "but I pray for it!" Let go!

07 The Black Queen - One Edge of Two: So much truth while climbing on to the edge of two worlds, still chosing the one that hurts the most. Captivating song and Greg Puciato's voice just ... Let go!

08 Danger Mouse - Two Against One: Let go! A fight among people with bullets in their mouths. "Just you and me against me". A selfish triangle of confusion... A different vibe.

09 Fantastic Negrito - About A Bird: A song with a name on the rythm. Dedicated to Ms. Jones. "Take a chance on me, cause no one else will".

10 Thrice - My Soul: "What if I'm broken from the start? What if I never heal?".

11 Blue October - All That We Are: Lingering on memories of when these songs would be a motivation, not a trigger for anxiety. 

12 Chevelle - Glimpse Of The Con: A ride home, a song with a truth to shatter me to pieces, maybe the reason for this collection. October was a month of changes, of falling hard, and you did not even notice, did you?

13 Shinedown - special: When all hope is lost you realize that "you're not special". Take the spotlight off, step down of your cross, there is no divine power within you. We are regular, common but deep.

14 Snow Patrol - What If This Is All The Love You Ever Get?: Maybe that is question, what if all I had was all what was left for me? What if I wasted eveything that was meant for me? Let go!

15 Seether - Against The Wall (Acoustic): A Seether punch and far harder in acoustic. "And if I dare to believe at all, it leaves me deflated". Wise words, and the story of my life, the harder you fly, the harder the fall.

16 Otep - Be Brave: Not all should be lost, there should be always hope to keep on... "Could you be happy if it was just you and I?"... actions show it can't be like that.

17 Smile Empty Soul - Noose: You wish you were a god and get all the attention, wish there was nothing but you around this whole galaxy, "but I don't, no I don't, no I don't believe in you." An scalating reflection on what is truth and what will choke you down.

18 Idles - June: "Baby shoes for sale, never worn"... the emotions within the song will take you for a heavy ride. It could have been sang to someone, but it would have been harsh. "Amend, amend, amend, amen!"

19 Coheed And Cambria - Lucky Stars: A song in blue. And will always be thankful, although I know I am just a petty game for your lonesome hours. But, you know what? I love just that.

Need a change, need to let it all go. End was nigh...

What If This Is All The Love You Ever Get? (by Snow Patrol)

Woah, what if this is all the love you ever get?

Woah, you'd do a couple things so differently, I bet

Woah, what if this is all the love I ever know

Woah, I'd say the words that were so hard to say, don't go

So you've fallen in love

So you've fallen apart

What if it hurts like hell

Then it'll hurt like hell

Come on over, come on over here

I'm in the ruins too

I know the wreckage so well

Come on over, come on over here

Woah, what if this is all the love you ever get?

Woah, you'd not worry so much about counting your regrets

Woah, what if this is all the love I'm ever shown

Woah, I'd not be so scared to run into the unknown

So you've fallen in love

So you've fallen apart

What if it hurts like hell

Then it'll hurt like hell

Come on over, come on over here

I'm in the ruins too

I know the wreckage so well

Come on over, come on over here

What if this is all the love you ever get?

Glimps Of The Con (by Chevelle)

Hand over every

Last hope, to find

One mask for every

Halo, divine

In ways known to others

The same hopes run together

So many eyes now

Way too many to count down

I fight to reach the surface

And then I'm passing out

In ways known to others

The same hopes run together

Don't weep, not for long

Lost savants

Between this fight and a wall

Peel those layers away

Send help for the damned

It's just a glimpse of the con from beyond.

I woke to hear a night owl

Way upon next hoax

To pass the time he'd say

Is anybody there

Don't weep, not for us

Lost savants

Between this fight and a wall

Peel those layers away

Send help for the damned

It's just a glimpse of the con from beyond.

Don't wait up

Its too close to know

Don't wait up

Its too close to care

Don't wait up

Its too close to tell

Don't wait

In ways known to others

The same hopes run together

Don't weep, not for us

Lost savants

Between this fight and a wall

Peel those layers away

Send help for the damned

It's just a glimpse of the con

Don't weep, not for long

Lost savants

Between this fight and a wall

Peel these layers away

Send help for the damned

It's just a glimpse of the con from beyond

From beyond

(a song of hope for the ones in despair)

Forest

Another little show of what's to come
Forgetting the path
Crossroads and none of them will save
Allowing some breath

Swinging the odds

In me
A fire that is willing to begin
And you
The forest that will crumble to the heat

Purple flames
Rising smoke
Purple stains
A heart that broke

Bandito (by Twenty One Pilots)

I could take the high road

But I know that I'm going low

I'm a ban, I'm a bandito

This is the sound we make

When in between two places

Where we used to bleed

And where our blood needs to be

I could take the high road

But I know that I'm going low

I'm a ban, I'm a bandito

In city, I feel my spirit is contained

Like neon inside the glass, they form my brain

But I recently discovered

It's a heatless fire

Like nicknames they give themselves to uninspire

Begin with bullet, now add fire to the proof

But I'm still not sure if fear's a rival or close relative to truth

Either way it helps to hear these words bounce off of you

The softest echo could be enough for me to make it through

Folina

Sahlo Folina

I created this world

To feel some control

Destroy it if I want

So I sing Sahlo Folina

I could take the high road

But I know that I'm going low

(Sahlo) I'm a ban, I'm a bandito

I created this world

To feel some control

Destroy it if I want

So I sing Sahlo Folina

My Soul (by Thrice)

Are you ready?

Are you alive to all that moves in me?

Are you steady?

Are you alarmed that I am incomplete?

Are you ready for my soul?

What if I'm broken from the start?

And what if I never heal?

Are you ready for my soul?

What if I open up my heart?

And somehow we stumble into something real?

Are you ready?

Are you aware of all that's underneath?

Are you steady?

Are you awake to what our love could be?

Are you ready for my soul?

What if I'm broken from the start?

And what if I never heal?

Are you ready for my soul?

What if I open up my heart?

And somehow we stumble into something real?

Are you ready for my soul?

What if I'm broken from the start?

And what if I never heal?

Are you ready for my soul?

What if I open up my heart?

And somehow we stumble into something real?

One Edge Of Two (by The Black Queen)

Step out from the setting sun

You might be my holy one

Penetrate my peaceful lie

You're my perfect alibi

Your silhouette against the sound

Underneath you there's no ground

Beneath you there's no ground

Slipping inside desire

You tell me everything

Staring into your fire and all I ever see is me

There's nowhere left but time

And all I ever see is me

And all I see is me

Climbing out to the edge of two worlds

All the life in me felt so still

Face to face against my own will

Screaming over my shoulder to you

Crying out so I had one choice

But I still couldn't find my voice

Hanging on to the edge of two worlds

Slipping inside desire

You tell me everything

Staring into your fire, it's all I ever see in me

You're all I see in me

Hanging on to the edge of two worlds

I wasn't pretending just telegraphing my ending

Just telegraphing my ending to you

I wasn't pretending

Climbing out to the edge of two worlds

All the life in me felt so still

Face to face against my own will

Screaming over my shoulder to you

Crying I saw I had one choice

But I still couldn't find my voice

I need more than just a rush

For me to not feel dying more than I feel the living

Oh because of this instant with you

The death of youth suspends itself

Hanging on to the edge of two worlds

Telegraphed my ending to you

Celebrate my ending with you

Lupus

I was born with the mark of the Wolf
A little sign that would define everything
You know, life is a journey you walk off
We all come face to face in the end

Grew to yells and the tears and the sorrow
Way too much for a young soul to understand
You know, memories can feed a blue soul
Turn yourself to the muse you adore

And I know that you were not in for this
Should have told you to stop
And I know that I hurt you with my sins
Should have told you to go

How can I ask forgiveness?
How can I change what I've been?
How long should I be regretful?
Howl every night to a
Hollow deception above
I am the Wolf

If you're willing to trust in true love
I would suggest that you better run away
You know, millions are better to chose from
But I swear you won't find someone worse

And I know that you were not in for this
Should have told you to stop
And I know that I hurt you with my sins
Should have told you to go

How can I ask forgiveness?
How can I change what I've been?
How long should I be regretful?
Howl every night to a
Hollow deception above
I am the Wolf

(Howl and howl to the hollow)
I am the Wolf

FTF 29 - The Softer Death

...then the weather cahnged!

01. God Is An Astronaut - Komorebi: As the protagonist approaches the demise, his mind goes blank and the contemplation arises...
02. A Perfect Circle - Feathers: "Sadness like a pendulum", a definition of the constant ups and downs. The weight of all the past will never turn to feathers.
03. Son Lux - Surrounded: Chaos but a feeling in the center of it all: history (will it ever be deleted?).
04. Marilyn Manson - Kill4Me: Maybe all he needed was the one who would kill. Yet, it went the other way. The killer was killed. Blame me.
05. Underøath - I Gave Up: After all the longing, the efforts and the turmoil, there was just one door left unopen: giving up.
06. 10 Years - Ghosts: Describing an expertice: "It takes dying to know how to live as ghosts". Death is nigh!
07. Skyharbor - Kaikoma: The Wolf is calling, "Stay with me, come lose yourself, far into the wilderness". There is so much that can't go unnoticed.
08. Thrice - The Grey: The only path left to follow is to lean in the grey.
09. System Of A Down - Roulette: Do I know how I feel when I'm around you? The lovely roulette of confusion, was it a smile or was it a tear?
10. Ghost - Life Eternal: In death we shall be together for a life eternal. And longing for you forever.
11. 36 Crazyfists - Dark Corners: The protagonists faces all that's done and there's one idea left... "And I was wrong to think that I'd be immune to this". It all carries forward to a crossroad...
12. Snow Patrol - Life And Death: The struggle of the oppoites and the way through is blurred, neither of us knows how it ends.
13. Kali Uchis - Killer: Then, in a moment of clarity, the true killer has been spotted. It was him all along...
14. André 3000 - Me&My (Bury Your Parents): Just the thought of death can be helpful for the better understanding of the world.
15. Ben Howard - Small Things: Every little detail put me aside. All the world has gone mad and I fell with it all.
16. Gin Wigmore - Cold Cave: "I need a heartbreak", not for an hour or a day. It needed to stop.
17. Kimbra - Version Of Me: The last time forgiveness is asked for. But please, as a last resort, trust there´s a better version of me, the protagonist does have a future. Can it be?
18. Zeal And Ardor - Built On Ashes: There is no coincidence the end is within the Zeal. Who is meant to die here? The protagonist? The muse lives on.

What comes next? There's nothing after the Z.

FTF 28 - The Harder Death

Songs to listen on the death row, get adrenaline pumping..

01. Parkway Drive - Wishing Wells: Set the record straight and face your God.

02. Caliban - Masquerade (Ft. Head): The mask was over my own face, now we're "Breaking away 'cause you're free"
03. Underøath - On My Teeth: "What you believe.. get over it...", realizing you gave in vain to the one and waited in vain for an answer. Where were you?

04. The Plot In You - NOT JUST BREATHING: When death approach you realize you are alive and not just breathing, can feel the blood on my veins willing to bathe the truth.

05. Greyhaven - White Lighters: "I’m not leaving your head, we’re just leaving the Earth". Into my own state of mind.

06. Slaves - Warning From My Demons: Coming to terms my life always told me it is hard to be loved and still working on it. Seems I do need pain to get through

07. Five Finger Death Punch - Stuck In My Ways: The warning I should always put on my forehead before a smile can be born: "Run away, get away, leave me behind you, I'm stuck in my ways" 

08. As I Lay Dying - My Own Grave: The centerpiece of this all: "There is no one else to blame". Always the last song to fit in each one defines the concept and it all falls in the right place.

09. Throwdown - This Continuum: There is a special place designed for me alone in there, I will never join you there. And it is all a Spiral!

10. Machine Head - Kaleidoscope: Another hymn for one reason to be here, music, even when there's no hope. "And if I'm lost, I don't want to be found... haunted by sound"... There is the muse.

11. Gojira - Stranded: "Don't lock the door on me", I would die but sometimes, death brings life. I'm stranded in the dark, in the cold... in the night...

12. Breaking Benjamin - Feed The Wolf: The animal that has lost it all. Will I make it through the world?

13. Of Mice & Men - Unbreakable: Nevermind the chant, yet I am willing to the remain. The  firestorm comes from above and I know I must pay for all.

14. Ghost - See The Light: Glad to have found this band right here and right now. "Everyday that you feed me with hate I grow stronger".

15. Korn - Die Yet Another Night: "Nobody wants you, you're a dead man"

16. We Are Band Nerds - Underwater: All the lies, all the hurt and all the hate make my world come over myself, can't breath under the weight of all my consequences.

17. Memento - Figure 8: Playing on infinity because the end is the beginning of the end of the beginning... And so forth!

Then just breath in and let the weather change...

To ABSUM (from the counterpart)

You there hiding, holding breath
Waiting for chaos to show your teeth
Bite the smile of my mask
And show the real tortuous grim

The shadow stuck at my feet
The demon I unknowingly feed
Crawl up the mirror of my mind
And I will let you take the lead

Indeed I'm wrong, done and gone
Never meant, never meant to hurt
But the more I resist the more you dig
And then I'm wrong, done and gone

No presence can make you be
A tearful ghost playing to be me
You think you know the harsh,
The side of life you can not see?

I know you have planted a seed
Took a time for the fruit to be seen
Nothing is surprising after all
Oh, the prize for those who seek!

Wrong and done and gone...

Can't take the one without the other
The dark that shows the brighter
Consider the whole not the pieces
Better run than embrace any further