en caída libre

Puede que sea distinto esta vez
Probablemente todo termine al revés
Sin voluntad más que un indicio
A dos pasos de caer al precipicio

...y saltas...

Te falta el aliento para respirar
Perdiendo sangre en cada extremidad
A tiempo lento el abismo es más grande
Sin luz para ver qué está delante

A toda velocidad en caída libre
Con la desesperación que te oprime
Recuerdos que te llenan de lágrimas
Tratando de vivir sintiendo lástima

...y sientes...

Cierra los ojos y déjate caer
No te detengas, sin desfallecer
Suelta el aire en tus pulmones
Deja volar todos tus errores

Libera la culpa, entrega las heridas
Enmarca las cicatrices tan queridas
No olvidarás cada día vivido
Siempre que tenga un nuevo sentido

...y renaces...

en un abrazo

...algún día todas las piezas rotas se juntarán...

Unwish

I wish it was me the one to give you all you deserved
Wish I was the one watching you fall asleep night after night
Wish it was me the person to warm you every morning
But i now it's gone

It was a dream that they shook us awake
I broke the promises and you were left behind
This is just too much for me to take
And I wish nothing ever changed but that ain't life...

Pages

How many times do I have to turn the page to find something new?

Poison

Years ago the snake bit for the first time
The poison spreading through my blood
Erasing frontiers on wrong and right
Dancing, crawling, festing in the mud

Monster awaking and sthrengthening
Growing filth inside a chosen one
Sins and stones in the path I'm walking
This is something I did not want

Getting used to have my numbed limbs
Not willing to amputate the infected
Desperate torture with needles and pins
Only seeing the dark side reflected

So many times crying or a new start
Yet the only direction I took is down
And the face in the mirror I can't stand
Broken skull for wearing such crown

Infectious disease through my vein

Keeping me away from your grace
So used to this that I feel no pain
And in my darkest hour I see Your face!

Du und ich

Du bist die Nacht und ich bin der Schatten,
Die Nacht endet, aber der Schatten bleibt.
Obwohl Schatten um Mitternacht verschwinden
Sie wecken bevor die Nacht wieder stirbt.

The saddest happy news ever

Once you asked "is this the end?"
With the darkest voice and melody
A question I would not understand
But the answer came as epiphany

I can today see the truth tha lies behind
I was always yours but just full of mistakes
And no more blaming for all that is done
Just regret I never did what it takes

But once I did put myself in your hands
What difference did I make if I was too late
Never by you  but you always in  my mind
Unwilling darkness that painted my fate

Wish I had the power you have over me
The will to shatter your soul with a word
To blur your mind, to steal all your breath
To freeze with a glimpse the world all around

You are the princess I never fighted for
The beautiful doll that was out of my reach
The flower that will aways stare at the sun
And I'm just the dragon you happily unleashed

Love will be shaped to the sound of your voice
The names and figures we used to create
The tears the we shed and the fire we enjoyed
The songs that I yelled but you couldn't relate

There must be a parallel world for both of us
Tell me there should be, please tell me there is
A place where we still can walk by the hand
Where I am the one that can bring you peace

Now that all has been said and all has been set
I am still not willing to wave you goodbye
You are the greatest story I can tell
You will inspire me til the day my words die...

You will...

Dull

Days passing by, shattering in silence
Wishing there were more colors outside
Memories hitting through perseverance
Changing yet again just to keep a line

Blurring notions of mystic benevolence
The more I look, the more it will evade
Extinguishing the warmth of a presence
Long lost worthy time that wouldn't prevail

Hoping this day could make a difference
Bright and sharp what lies behind the veil
Bring less dullness to a sour existence
Show me there is more than just a detail

I'll close my eyes for a brief reminiscence
It shall all be gone in a second of reason
And by the time I'm back on my sense
The cloud for you will be forever gone

A part of me will remain searching for solace
Another is driving me completely insane
And the only thing that is missing is balance
Though this time I will categorically abstain...

Algo nuevo...

Hoy un nuevo olor me sorprendió
Descubrí la esencia de la no-vida
Saturando los sentidos me inundó
El aroma de un alma en salida

Ahora todo me sabe a algo nuevo
Los colores hoy se distorsionan
Memorias, cuentos, deseos, sueños
Imágenes en mi mente se fusionan

Queda lo intangible, solo un truco
La ausencia será un golpe interno
Acá con un recuerdo ya caduco
Y tú disfrutando el reino eterno

it...where is it?

The mixture of perfect impulses
Brings me to the present question
Where is it when I need it?
I love to give myself through
Shed, share, spread, smear...

Is it ever gonna be enough?

Not the plan I had in mind before
Yet this flavor in my mouth
The sense of self acceptance
Is sweet most of the times
Yet brings an un-welcomed fear

Is it ever gonna be enough?

The best of me and ask for more
Gently I will make it through
I think I'm not who I used to be
And you're not who you'll become
And inside of me I yet say:

Is it ever gonna be enough?

It was you

The world will spin after I'm gone
People won't stop walking after me
Projections of future perfect remain
All the visions we couldn't see

Tried the best and look what's done
None of this I was able to foresee
But a shadow is the only thing to stay
Rather adorable my new company

But it was you
The hand I held and couldn't grab
The eyes that looked through and forgot
The future you pictured and I...

So now that time has come through
Orchids dead and the lonesome tree
Portrait of the most lovely tragedy
It will linger for centuries inside me

But it was you
The life that never had a chance
The story that died before it had a go
The future I pictured and you...

Couldn't coincide in space and time
And never regret not saying the last word

But it was you
The pictures dancing in my head
The voice that freezes the entire universe
The future you pictured and I...
I couldn't ever give...